PlatKat.com: Halfway Through

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Halfway Through

Fifteen days sober, and at least 15 more to go. I was scared that I'd be spending every evening in my tiny apartment, watching movies, reading books, and engaging in other spinster-like activities. But no, I've been just as busy as I was when I drank every night, and then some.

So the good news is that nothing has changed. The bad news, however, is also that nothing has changed.

I thought that by now I would experience some dramatically beautiful awakening where I realize how good I feel and how wonderful everything is. (My stomach never hurts! My skin is clearer! I'm 10 pounds lighter! The sun is shining! Birds are singing! All that shit!) But sadly, my life still is what it is. And I guess the most noticeable difference is my credit card bill so far this month.

Drinking is just one piece of the puzzle, I'm finding. I think another Master Cleanse is in my future, perhaps longer and harder than ever before.

Heh heh, longer and harder. Glad I've managed to hang onto my depraved sense of humor.

posted by platkat @ 11:31 AM